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I know it's hard to see the future and imagine it's bright
I have dim my lights down I keep crashing at night with every Foster home I'm rostered and I'm highly distorted
And the pain ain't going nowhere although I try to avoid it
Adapted to nightmares so it's hard to stay focused
But homie I've been homeless I struggled to know what hope is
Told my bro hold tight a cold night and I hate it
Sleep through the horrors not knowing if I'd make it
Used to scrunch up newspapers stuck it under my jacket
Underneath the layers homie I was broken and damaged
Often wondered what happened if I am loving and happy
I ain't used to it dog I am destruction and havoc
Sometimes it's too much to bare can you carry my load
I know the streets snatched you up so we rarely die old
I used to sleep next to bakeries to gain some warmth
It's kinda crazy how you saved me in the heart of the storm
At times it gets hard and it is often overwhelming
I was stuck up in the spot but the thought keeps on growing
Like everytime my heart beats dog and yours isn't
I'm guilty I'm alive I know you can't visit
My decisions are haunting me I am staring at fate
And you ain't missing much but watching me deteriorate
Like an? which was born for life instead tortured in darkness and torn from light
My soul suffers bro
I am thrown into prison
There's a spot for you homie and it's cozy in heaven
If the ones who created you are willing to consider murdering your life then it's to establish you weren't delivered
My burden is heavy that my neck is weak
Use concrete as a pillow yes I slept on streets and
I don't understand why it's rest in peace even though it ain't an option for most that left deceased
I can greet you with a smile while I'm calling your name
Underneath that grin homie there s torture and pain
And the burden I'm carrying is now a ball and chain
I often run in sunshine than I walk in rain
It's the tune that suits me
It pours like medicine
My music can tell me story more than I ever can
I ain't tryna get sympathy or blow up my chest
It's the only way homie I release my stress
It's the tune that suits me
It pours like medicine
My music can tell me story more than I ever can
I ain't tryna get sympathy or blow up my chest
It's the only way homie I release my stress